mental block

Usually, I am very good about remembering birthdays. But for some reason, this year I have managed to miss (or almost miss) virtually everyone's. I did manage to remember my father's, and my grandmother's, which is one week after Dad's. But I forgot most of my friends' until weeks afterwards, almost missed my boyfriend's, and had to be told by my stepdad that it was his birthday that day (he didn't particularly mind I forgot, he was just commenting). And the crowning touch, I just remembered about my Mom's birthday yesterday. Today is her birthday. Luckily, Amazon can do next-day shipping when you order early enough, but I really prefer to go out and think about what to get people, and this time I just got something from her wish list.

In general, I love to give presents, but I am so broke right now I haven't really been able to do it. I feel so bad, even though I know most everybody understands.

I wish I knew why I am blocking out birthdays this year. And I wish I had enough money to buy presents. Maybe I'm blocking because I know I can't get presents anyway.

just wrong

You know, having a cold in August, during a heat wave, is just wrong.